Friday, December 10, 2010
*if you listen to the audio you get a bit of a bonus*
I am sitting here pondering all the "stuff" that is going on. (I am in a fairly good mental space right now, so I can ponder freely without crumpling into a ball on the floor.) I am thinking about my sister's description of me and today's counseling session and last nights running. All this thinking made me wonder about a few things.
1. How would I describe myself? and does that description change based on my thinking?
*My description most definitely would depend on my thinking. When I am in a good and objective space I would describe myself much nicer than I would when I was in a not so objective of a space.
*I am not a perfect Mom, but I try to raise my kids to be strong, helpful, well adjusted little people. I do the best with what I have got. Some days I have more than other days.
* I am a pretty good wife. I try and protect my marriage with my actions and my choices. When I make mistakes I admit to them and apologize. I keep the house running.
*I can be a great friend. I won't ever call you, or rarely, because I'm not much of a phone person, but outside of that I am a good friend. If you need me I am there. 3 am or 3 pm. I will figure out a way to help.
*I am willing to listen to people. I don't always like everyone but I try to be nice to everyone.
*I will protect the weak if I can. I root for the underdog. I am not afraid to confront bullies if they are bullying someone else. Sometimes I can confront my own bullies. More now than when I was young.
*I am not a good talker if I am not comfortable with you. If I feel safe and am comfortable, the words come out much easier, but there are still some words that never come easily or at all, no matter who I am with.
*I find deeper meaning in the mundane. I see things that others often miss, or never think to look at. I have a different way of looking at the world than most people do.
*I often have a running story going in my mind. I tend to write about life in my head as I am living it. Finding the words I would use to describe something, or noticing what I am doing. I am usually quite observant and take everything in.
*I am much too self critical and tend to be obsessive in my thinking.
*When I am in a good space I feel at peace with my looks. Not a raving beauty, or a beauty, but not a beast to be hidden away either.
*I enjoy being creative. Cooking, baking, scrapbooking, drawing. I am not the best at any of those things, but I enjoy doing them. Just for my own pleasure.
*I like to sing in the shower.
*It is hard for me to be taken care of. I like to be the one to take care of others.
*I am quite complex in many many ways.
*I enjoy small and simple things more than extravagent and big things.
*I don't like jewlery. I would prefer getting a new vaccuum cleaner or appliance to any type of jewlery.
*I want to get at the truth of things, even if that truth is hard, hurtful, or makes me wrong.
2. I am curious how you, as the reader of my blogs, would describe me. So, if you are reading this and you are willing, I am curious how you would describe me based on what you know of me. You can always keep the comment annonymous. I would like your honest observations.