I woke up not feeling great. A sinus infection was taking root and I was trying to ignore it. I was planning on going to a garage sale that a friend from church was having, but I ended up not making it there. I also wanted to go buy some tweezers to tame that growing uni-brow back into conformity, but that didn't happen either. Instead I stayed home and dyed my full on gray roots back into a more youthful shade. Hubby ended up being called back into work, so it was me and the kiddos. As I was almost done drying the fresh dyed hair with a towel and shaving instead of plucking the beastly brow I heard it. A crash. Followed by yells of "MOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMM!" coming from the other side of the bathroom door. My 3 year old had spilled orange juice that he wasn't supposed to be drinking all over the floor and on my laptop as well.
My sick head left little room for patience and I shooed them all out of the room with some overly loud words and harsh tones. I cleaned the mess, made the bed, dried off the laptop and hoped all was well.
When I tried to use my laptop a few minutes later nothing happened. It would not turn on. I tried plugging in the charger, nothing still. I tried again and again. Nothing and nothing. I set it down, told myself to let it sit longer, it would work. I laid down. 15 minutes later I tried again. Nothing, no glimmer of hope.
I lamented on facebook, asked for prayers for my laptop. (I know of all the heartache and hardships in this spinning crazy world I put my laptop on the priority of prayer. Shameful, really.) Then, I sobbed, not a dainty tear or two, but gut wrenching sobs for a dead laptop, words of my own only saved to it, loss. I sobbed and prayed and apologized to God for caring so much about a piece of technology. Then I decided I needed more sleep, sleep should help buffer the loss a little.
I dozed in and out as children kept meandering in and disrupting the slumber. My kind oldest daughter came and asked if she could make lunch for all so I could sleep. Bless her. I dozed over the cacophony of lunch being made, served, and eaten down the stairs. I dozed some more after the full bellies quieted a little.
Then I had a strange dream. It was short and it woke me with a start. I dreamt I was leaning down, picking a beautiful flower from a garden that sat beside a white house and below an open window. As I picked the flower a strong and frightful wind blew past my ear. The wind was cold and its breath was evil. It made me jump in my sleep. As I awoke I heard a silent voice ask if the frightening wind that blew around the flower had made the flower any less beautiful.
I am still processing that image, wind, and question, along with its possible meaning.
Not long after that hubby called to say he would be coming home soon. I told him about the laptop. As I was talking my Kody boy who is ten grabbed it and handed it to me. "Look Mom, it is working." He had gotten it to turn on. I told him people must have been praying, because I had tried five times with no luck at all. He beamed, because in his mind he had 'fixed' it.
Hubby came home and we went shopping so I could buy a dress. We were going to a wedding that night and I only had fancy ball dresses and summer dress in my closet. Nothing evening wedding appropriate. Still feeling sick, but powering through I worried about if I would find a dress in time. I rarely have shopping success and shopping failures can break me. I knew I was already raw with sinus, so I prayed for something to fit and not make me look like a circus clown. I found something in the second store I tried and it was half off. Thumbs up God, you rocked it!
Home and then to the wedding. So beautiful. The reception was a blast. Visiting, free ice cream bar with an ice cream truck pulled beside the building. Friends. Wedding cake. Great time.
Came home spent an hour with the kids then went back out because we were all dressed up and wanted to spend it out together. I could not make up my mind what I wanted to do or where to go. My poor husband. As we drove my behavior and indecision became more erratic. I told him I felt drunk. He told me I was being weird. It continued to escalate. We came home after choosing burger king for a soda and sandwich since I never ate dinner before the wedding. The food was gross. I regretted the decision, but I ate it anyways, because maybe I needed solid food in my stomach.
At home I staggered in and up the stairs, oldest daughter asked how dinner was. I flailed my arms wildly and told her in an unusual tone how disgusting it was. At the top of the stairs she told me I was being weird. Wide eyed and feeling trapped behind my odd behavior I agreed with her. She asked if I was riding the "white pony". I laughed so hard I slid against the wall and to the floor. I told them to get their Dad, because I was feeling weird. I felt drunk, but hadn't touched a drop of alcohol, not only that day but not in over a year. Drugs, never.
He came up stairs and I crawled into our room. He took the dress off for me, brought me some pajamas and I crawled in bed, staring at the ceiling. I told him my head felt swooshy. After about fifteen to twenty minutes I came out of whatever that was. Maybe the gross chicken kicked in. I then of course had to post the weirdness on facebook before falling asleep. I am that annoying person on facebook. Sorry if you are one to deal with me.
In the middle of the night Steve woke me up with his dreams. He was talking in his sleep. Calling on the name of Jesus, then speaking tongues, distressed. I awoke him. He fell back asleep into the same dream, this time calling out Satan, screaming, more tongues. I woke him again. He was fighting a battle in his dreams.
We both slept a little longer after that.
I woke up feeling more myself than I had gone to bed feeling, but the sinuses were much worse. I was determined to go to church, because I just love it so much I don't want to miss what God is doing. He seriously does something awesome every week at church. Seriously, you should come check it out. Always welcome, always. Even sick like me in body, spirit, heart, or mind. Jesus came for the sick, so I am gonna start showing up at His hospital as much as I can.
Church this morning was worth the stuffy nose and trips to the bathroom to blow it. God's spirit showed up big time. It was so present and there. It was palpable. Whenever that happens it reminds me of field of dreams; "if you build it they will come". God's people 'built it' and He came. I am not going to cheapen the experience with words to explain it, but if you weren't there today, you missed out.
After church it was date day with the oldest and me. She has been asking for one for a long time, too long, and today was the day. We went to lunch where her burger got massacred. The waitress noticed as she took the plate and the manager comped us her meal. From there we went to the library (her choice), I slept in the car, because the sick was taking over. From the library we went to the mall and then home.
I crawled into bed and stayed there the rest of the day. I slept and slept then got up to take some medicine my hubby bought me and a bath. Now I am wide awake and so I type. How was your weekend?