Saturday, January 22, 2011
The Healing Road
What is it that this road to healing is going to look like? I am so curious to know. Will the path be rocky, or will I find it paved and solid? Okay, so I doubt a healing path is paved. That is just wishful thinking on my part hoping that it might be somewhat straight forward and easy. I know that won't be the case. A paved road indicates a road that has been traveled, time spent on it it, leveling it, clearing away the debris, and then the paving comes. No one has been on my road of healing, so I am the one who is going to have to do the work. Getting a paved road is a process just as healing is going to be a process, and neither of them are going to happen overnight.
If I were an artist I would paint the picture of how my road might look: Woman standing at the edge of a path, a path that twists and turns through a thick forest. Someone waits at the edge of the forest to greet her and lead her to the one who can show her the way through the forest, The Path-finder. The Path-finder leads her to the other side. Here the road in front of her is a little more clear, but this is where the Path-finder stops. She urges the woman on. There is a steep hill in front of her, she can't see over the edge of that hill, but at the top of it stands yet another guide to help her face the unknown.
This is where my painting would have to stop, because this is as much of the road as I know. My Doctor led me to the Path-finder, my counselor, she took me through the forest of depression and silence. She helped the words to come and now we stand together at the edge of the forest with the hill in front of me and my new psychiatrist standing at the top of that hill waiting to help me traverse the other side of it, the side I can't see. The side that will determine if the road will lead to home or just end up going nowhere.