I Will Rise

The Butterfly's Story

You captured me

Took advantage of my delicate nature

Knowing I could not fight

You chained me with your actions

And you left me sitting in darkness

I WILL RISE

Chains and darkness are not my destiny

I am meant to fly

Love comes and lights what you made dark

Gives me hope and strength

Freedom is calling

I WILL RISE

Lifted by Light I stretch out my wings

Your chains they pull

 I pull harder

The promise of my future is stronger

Than the pain of my present

I WILL RISE

Torn and tattered by your actions

I rise as your chains fall away

The light of Love fills my broken and my empty

With Love lifting me

My fragility is stronger than your captivity.

I HAVE RISEN

My secret place

I don't remember having a secret place as a child.  I had an active imagination.  I could create stories in my mind for hours.  Sometimes they would get written out, but mostly they stayed in my head.

I would often retreat into my head and my stories throughout my life.  Most of the time the stories would revolve around a hero of some type.

When I went through my emotional hell in 2010 the only place I wanted to be was in white nothingness.

I would close my eyes and imagine a world of white light.  There would be nothing there, just me lying on a floor of white surrounded by white, maybe covered by a blanket of white and I could disappear into the whiteness.  The silent white nothingness would swallow me up in it and I was safe.  It was quiet, gloriously quiet, and empty.

This last weekend opened up the wounds deep, digging into long covered infections unknown.

Once again I find myself wanting the white, the nothingness, the escape where I can fade into it. The white light where nothing can hide, but I can no longer be seen.  A place where silence reigns and my mind quiets.

My secret place, my escape is nothingness.  I wonder what that means.  A girl who wants to find home so badly, but the go to place she has created in her mind is invisibility, a non-existence.

Linking up with Faith Jam today.